in the first days of our lives we cannot begin to comprehend what goes on around us. everything is new, having to be taught how to do every little thing. how to talk, and what to say when we do. we begin by crawling and mumbling.. fumbling our way through what we know to be life at that moment. I have found this to be true for spiritual life as well... when we first begin to have even the slightest amount of faith we dont know how to express it and in a sense are just like children. started from nothing and growing into and adult. just like kids each person develops at a different pace and in a different way. we have to be taught how to handle this new form of life. thankfully there is one thing that will undoubtedly help anyone through this. constantly pushing you to grow and become what you always wanted to be. because no matter what you say, every person wants to be more than what they are.. in some way better than themselves.. whether it be more courageous, loving, or even more social. God gives you all of this. sometimes slowly but when all is said and done there is nothing more worth it. life is more fulfilling, people are more beautiful. and personally the world is so much more vivid. even a breath of air can sometimes make the day worth living through no matter how bad it could be going. i was once in the boundary waters, which is on the border of canada and the united states, it was abut 2 in the morning.. and my friend and i were out on this rock that goes out into one of the lakes watching the northern lights.. i know everyone has heard of these.. .and they are a sight to behold.  but if that isnt enough.. after it was too late to see them anymore the clouds rolled in and about an hour later.. for some reason i became deathly afraid of something.. almost an evil presence. then suddenly my friend pointed up to the sky and to my complete amazement there was a clearing in the clouds in the perfect shape of a heart.. with all the stars inside of it glowing as bright as ever! now if this does not amaze you the im not sure what to tell you! it was truly a sight to behold. and made my heart beat stronger with every second i looked at it. that experience made the rest of the trip so much more enjoyable. that is the kind of stuff im talking about.